Day one in my new life.....

People have often gotten rather upset with me because I always erase my blogs...well one of the reasons why I do that is because sometimes I write down something when I feel passionate about it...but then later on I read it again and it seems kind of silly to me...so I erase it...because in a sense, my views have changed since then.

So honestly...you can't hold me to what I say on here. This is just my brainstorming place.

I haven't really written with much abandon on here anyways ever since I realized so many trolls were reading what I had to say.

It no longer feels like a secluded beach...it's more like a stage...and the audience is well...just about any Joe out there, that includes you too Mister.

A week ago, my ex called me 34 times....34 missed calls for one hour and a half...can you believe that?

My mom calls him a LOSER.

That he is...that he is.

He called again this past weekend 15 times...I did finally answer him...and I asked him why he's been calling me so much lately...he actually got upset.

According to my horoscope...he's been too important in my priorities of late...even just in thought. The man stresses me out. I don't even know why he's still calling me. I don't even know why he thinks he is still in my life.

He's really NOT.

I asked God to take him away ...out of my life. And you know what? God put him in a car accident. And he actually called to tell me.

I didn't feel guilty about it. I just felt more affirmed that he really is not the man for me.

There is a sensitive spot in my heart for losers though. I mean, I can't hate him. Even though he really aggravates me. But I can't seem to hate him...I have no ill will towards him, other than asking God why he put such a loser in my life...

As much of a loser as he is...he's still nicer than some total strangers. Isn't that rather odd?

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Anyways for those of you who read about the Hotty...who had the hots for me a while back at work....he got himself FIRED.

Can you believe that? I can't believe it. I mean, I figured he would considering he spent so much time flirting and not enough time focusing on his work.

I'm a really focused person and a workaholic myself...so he was rather distracting.

I really liked him though. I guess it didn't help that I told him I was glad he got fired. He must have felt like a total idiot...so he never called me again after he first initially called me back. I have a feeling he's still trying to get over being overly confident and getting fired.

I can't even imagine getting fired. I've never gotten fired ever in my whole life. I have never received an F in my life. Failing is NOT part of my DNA. I can't stand it. I refuse to do it...and I refuse to let myself fail.

Mistakes are different from utter and total failure.

I'm a winner, not a loser.

Anyways...the second HOTTY who had the hots for me at work...he told me...."EM, I will never be mad at you no matter what...you just can't possibly upset me, I promise to never get mad at you.."

Well, he got so annoying...and then to top it all off, after I told him off, he started to hate on me! What a LIAR!

I don't much like him anymore...not that I ever did....I only liked him for all of 3 days...because he gave me an unexpected hug and he looked at me like I was a piece of chocolate cake and we had some chemistry moments that were totally crazy...and that was the ONLY reason why I actually looked twice at him...but after I came to my senses...I decided to go back to ignoring him again.  And that actually offended him!

Gosh, I really don't like guys like that...first of all, he should have NEVER looked at me...since he is a married man. And second of all, he should have NEVER expected anything more than politeness from me. What was he thinking?

Oh well...I'm not even doing any dating or boyfriend searching until 2009. I need to recuperate from emotional stress from the last 8 years of hell, STILL.

Until next time...talk to you soon. Don't be a stranger....

The end of Elitemaiden

Dear World of Warcraft Elitemaiden Friends and Fans,

Today is the end of Elitemaiden. It's been officially a year since I retired her. Her name will remain forever in Legend. But never again will you meet her in game or in character. I've decided not to resurrect her in game again. My new life in anonymity has been so fabulous and successful. I may or may not share with you my newest adventures and lovers. I'm sure you'll understand the need for secrecy and avoiding trolls.

Goodbye world. It was fun while it lasted.

Something to live life by...

The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Beers

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a
day are not enough, remember the story of the mayonnaise jar and the 2 Beers.
 

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front
of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty
mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the  students if

the jar was full.

They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar .  

He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the 

 golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They

agreed it was.  

The professor next picked up a box of

 sand and poured it into the jar.  

Of  course, the sand filled up everything else.  

He asked once more if the jar  was full. The  students responded with an

 unanimous 'yes.' 

The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the  

entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the
sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor as the laughter 

subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The  

golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your

health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was 

lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are

the other things  that matter like your job, your house

 and your car. The sand is everything  else---the small stuff. 'If you put the sand 

into the jar first,' he

continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. 

The  same goes for life. 

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff  

you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

 'Pay  attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Spend time with   

your children. Spend time with your parents. Visit with grandparents. Take   

time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another   

18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix  the disposal.  

 Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really 

matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just

 sand.'

 One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the beer represented.

The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.' The beer just shows you

that no  matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of  

beers with a friend.'

Hurray Hurray! My period came.